That I am friends here on tumblr with some FUCKING BEAUTIFUL people! <3 I mean, absolutely stunning, inside and out.
You ladies never fail to make me smile, you are RADIANT, you are SPLENDIFEROUS, you are goddamn GODDESSES and I love you!
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I really needed to read this. Thank you, Nicole.
I am forever grateful I found you and my other tumblr friends. You have definitely changed my life and became a great support system. That’s priceless.
You are beautiful, dynamic, and strong. Thanks for being you!
Just stop! You’re so 100% wonderful, ALL OF YOU WOMEN ARE!
But Nicole, you are such a beautiful amazing human and you have really helped me in so many ways you don’t even know. You were my first tumblr friend when I had absolutely NO ONE and I was sad and ugh <3 I can’t even express.
This woman is a phenomenal mother, wife, and friend.
<3 <3 this whole thread is made up of awesomeness and love <3 <3
one life spread reading done, one more to go. I need to shower. also, is it too early to drink wine? because I would love some wine.
Sat down to answer some asks, ended up taking a ton of notes from my guides about programs/books I will be creating and what I should put in them. It’s good, I think, I just wish I could like finish what I start to do. Haha.
I’ve been very careful with what I’ve said on tumblr just for the fact that people are comforted (and set off) by very different things. That being said, I appreciate you reaching out to me <3
I think, ultimately, the biggest thing I’ve learned from this experience is that… life is too short not to be happy. To go for what I want. And at the same time, I’ve spent a lot of the last two months just trying to take care of myself. I think I would have been in a much better place if I hadn’t lost my job, and the only reason I say that is because not having a job has meant not having 40 hours of my week that I can turn off Jessica and do what other people tell me to do. It was a way to pass the time, even though I hated it there.
I’m not an overly emotional person but I did struggle, a lot, with my feelings, with anxiety, and with sleeplessness… and with feeling like things didn’t matter, for a while. It took me a few weeks to realize I needed help. Right before I lost my job my doctor prescribed me some anti-depressants. I don’t know why I didn’t think Postpartum Depression could affect me. In hindsight, I wish I had told someone at work what was going on. I probably would have taken time off and gone back. But I also know, deep down, that isn’t where my future lies. And I wasn’t really appreciated there. I also know I’m not the same person I used to be, and a lot of people there wouldn’t understand that.
So I’ve given myself some goals to work torwards. I restarted my business, which I used to be super passionate about. I spent time with friends. I did readings at a shop (it was terrifying!) and laughed so hard I cried. I’ve also just cried a lot. The more time passes, the less hurt I feel. But I’m also trying really hard to just let myself experience what I feel. So if I feel sad, instead of telling myself I shouldn’t feel sad, I sit with the feeling for a while. Sometimes I talk to my husband about it. Sometimes I go back through the ultrasound pictures. Sometimes I go on a walk. Whatever I feel like I need to do, I just let myself do it. I’m not usually a very impulsive person, so it’s been a little difficult. Some days I keep busy with cleaning, doing readings, blogging, or working on my theology studies. Some days I don’t get out of bed.
I have been very fortunate to receive amazing support, from people I know in person and from so many followers, probably like you, who have reached out to me. I honestly don’t know how I would have made it through all of this without them. And honestly, some of the best, most supportive things, have been people just saying ‘hey, I’m proud of you’, or ‘hey I’m thinking about you’.
I think, ultimately, I know that things are going to be okay eventually. I think I’ve changed a lot and so I’m having to re-learn who I am and how I function. And I think anyone who’s had a similar experience would tell you the same thing; this changes who you are, but you are strong enough to get through this.
The last thing I want to say is something my dad told me very recently, something I wish he had told me years ago. ‘Life is a fight… and you have to be strong.’ What he didn’t tell me is that sometimes you can be strong for so long that you run out of strength and need to take time to rebuild that strength. I finally figured that out. That’s the one thing I want everyone to know.
I hope this helps, at least a little bit. <3
Hi there! I occasionally do free readings on my blog, but only for a limited time.
I usually make a post on my blog announcing that I’m open for readings, and whatever rules people need to follow to submit a request. Then I close requests by making another post on my blog. I try not to leave it open for very long because inevitably I get dozens of requests and then it ends up taking me about 2 weeks to get them all done.
I’m currently in the middle of doing some requests from last week so I probably won’t be open again for free readings until at least a week into August. ^_^
Otherwise if you want to purchase a reading, you can check out my website or this page, which is some special stuff I offer just to tumblr users. The free readings I do are extremely brief and a paid reading has a lot more detail and depth, plus they are totally private since I conduct those exclusively over email.
(I’m NOT open for free reading requests right now)